Well, I don't know. I enjoy the way it is most of the time, even though I acknowledge problems with the world and obvious improvements that could be made. I just don't see myself ever making a measurable difference. I'm generally almost overwhelmed when something works out the way I want it to, so much so that the smallest of things will keep me quite satisfied and from jumping in front of a train.
When something goes wrong it's generally not worse than I expected, so I guess that tells you a thing to two about how bad my general expectations are in life: as long as anything goes even remotely the way I'd like it to, I'll have something to smile about. It also helps when you don't make plans or expect things to work out in your favor.
And when everything does go wrong, there's always relief in knowing one day you won't have to deal with it anymore.
