viima
luihin ja ytimiin
aurinko nousee

odotan kun
aurinko nousee

viimeisen kerran

julkiset vaunut saapuvat
kasvoja tulvii vastaan
valtavirtaan
uin vastavirtaan

raajat raahaavat minua
levolle ja

aurinko nousee
sukellan

pikakahvi
täyttää sisimpäni

sukellan kofeiinihöyryissäni
minne tänään päädynkin:
levolle

aurinko laskee
sukellan pikakahviin
viima täyttää sisimpäni

Annoyance

; the by-product of

lack of adjustment [to one's environment]
poor timing
[seemingly] (in)consistent thinking / conclusions
ideologies
opinions like assholes

the simple fact that,
i am more right than you

A world of [great] possibility

wanted to write a whole new chapter
about us, but
keep coming back to:
it' easier not to

wanted to punch life in the face
for us, but
keep coming back to:
these metaphores


the moments, when
every option is perfect
each path the right one






Young journalist: Everything you say is contradictory. You can't have been in one place and another at the same time. Of all those lives, which one is the right one?

Nemo Nobody aged 118: Each of these lives is the right one! Every path is the right path. Everything could have been everything else and it will have just as much meaning.

Money ≠ happiness

Clearly;
People who claim money cannot bring happiness
have never had any


or spent it wrong

Freedom: a dramatic reading

From the perspective of freedom being the state prior to choosing sides; life, a job, a career, a family. A fucking big television, washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Before good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. The present lacking morgage repayments; a starter home, friends. No leisure wear and matching luggage. Not facing the choice of a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Prior to DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning; sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth ... rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future? Choose life?

...

I never stood a chance
at freedom

Expensive taste

Against investing in brands
For the discovering of quality products;

Freedom, privacy
Embracing the end of the world as we know it
Courage

I am [become] a moral gray zone.
[the] destroyer of worlds

Choices

It may be that I could do any one thing
at any given moment

only one thing
out of all those alternatives
is key here

saying yes to something, but
ultimately
saying no to everything else

This will always have been your one thing
as well as mine; at a different time, place
we will have shared the same different thing(s)
together, alone

Feeling wealthy

I can afford to arbitrarily choose in which time zone to spend the day. No amount of money or material possessions can compare to what I have.

Wow,

My room has a floor again. I'm so sick of owning all this useless shit.

I could be free

I am free.




I forget the option of running away.


I forget not caring, indifference, truth, honesty, contentment, joy, your voice and the words you've spoken.

I forget.




When I remember, sometimes, when morning hours creep around the corner; I remember, I am relieved, I breathe again.

I remember you and I remember thoughts, dreams; I remember the wall I'm supposed to climb... when I'd much rather stay in bed.