What separates you from the animals

All of the ironically wifey preferences I may have, there's just something you have that no one else I know does:

suicidal tendencies

Power

I don't, however, know for sure how 'depressing' the fact, that I derive some of the greatest comfort from ending my own life, is.

Shouldn't there be a 'cheerier' way to restore faith in having control over ... life?

Money ≠ happiness

Clearly;
People who claim money cannot bring happiness
have never had any


or spent it wrong

Improvements to the world as we know it

Shut the fuck up and do what I say.

I want to stop

I'm reluctant to move in any direction right now, I don't feel like sleeping or waking up. I don't want to speak to anyone, but when someone speaks to me they'll either remind me of happy times and I'll laugh and feel happy or I'll fill up with rage and contempt towards them and what they say. I'm tired of responding. thinking. doing [nothing]. I don't want to dress up or undress; tired of the thought of taking a shower or brushing my teeth, yet doing these things, I'm very pleased with myself and the outcome. Clean teeth, hair, comfortable clothes; soft.

Times like these make me wonder how large the possibility is that I'm losing it or how people end up in that state. How does one... and why don't they.

[...]

Anything lasting forever might be terrible

Making room for a certain someone from time to time is one of the best things I know, if not the best. We must explore our limits so that we will hopefully at least someday know some of what we don't know about ourselves, if it's too difficult to get to know who we are entirely. I'm trying not to destroy others in the process. ////